The past year has been interesting. I've been having all these weird feelings and thoughts that seem to be from an outsider's perspective - an observer's perspective. And it hasn't been to a degree that's common to me, no, it seems it has completely consumed me somehow. It's like I see the world through the eyes of an alien, and I'm intrigued by the most fundamental things in our world, like, communication and language for example. Isn't it just amazing how we communicate through words and sounds? And how easy we can understand each other even when we don't speak the same language? I said something as simple as "thank you" to my colleague a moment ago and started giggling to myself afterwards because the sound of it was so fascinating, the way I knew what to say and the fact that she understood me and that we were so receptive to that kind of communication. It was just so funny to me, and exciting, and I don't really know why.
For a few years now, I've been wanting to get to know people without talking (though people are awfully reluctant to try this, believe it or not). Last year I had a thought about how nice it would be to go on a first date with someone and not speak to each other. Just do something fun together and see how we both react and act in certain situations, read facial expressions and use body language, but above all else connect.
I don't know why, but oral comunication just feels so foreign to me all of the sudden, or perhaps outdated..? I often loose words and I'm grateful when someone finish my sentences (which is funny because most people get annoyed when others do this) But I think it's fascinating because lately when people have done this, they finish the sentences exactly how I thought about finishing them in the first place, which is a small proof to me that on a certain other level, we are already communicating - non-verbally/orally.
I love to sing, well of course I do, otherwise I wouldn't be a singer songwriter, but I've noticed that what I really feel like doing, is to not put words together with the sounds I make. It's like Lisa Gerrard and similar artists. What I'm singing has meaning, purpose and a message, but it's not about words, rather it's about the way I sing.
Whenever I hear someone sing I feel like singing too, and whenever I sing I feel so alive, and my heart and solar plexus chakras expand so much it feels like my chest and stomach is going to explode. It's an excitement and joy I can't quite describe (obviously, I don't want my heart and stomach to explode, but you know what I mean). Same with dancing.
Somewhere along the line we started using words - naming things - so that it would become easier to communicate, but that's just it. Words are tools in communication, not the essence of it. I think people forget that sometimes. Actions play a much bigger role - the leading role actually, and words are just the supporting characters that binds it all together and complete the story.
It's quite possible to communicate without words.
I've always been a person who has felt like she has a lot to say, but suddenly I find myself in a space where words aren't that important anymore, instead I just feel like doing - a lot actually! It seems that much (not all of course) of what I want to share, can be communicated in some other way, on a new level.
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