I am here, and I am living with these feelings and thoughts. These memories are mine. I cannot make the pain go away, but I can find ways to live with it. There is nothing right now that can heal all the hurt, and so, the only thing left to do is to see that it is there, feel it, observe it, and let it be. Emotional pain is not as temporary as physical pain, and traumas will always be remembered, consciously or subconsciously. They are a part of me, only, they need not scare me. They need not keep me from experiencing happiness and love. They need not tell me what I can and cannot do. They need not define me.
My biggest comfort has always been to be present within my senses. To focus on the smells, the sounds, the temperature, anything that touches my skin. Focusing on any light, or reflection of light. Feeling my heart beating. A beating heart is the most calming thing, and hearing a living being breathing, because it reminds me of life, and its eternal motion. It is what tends to be forgotten at times, the simple fact that we are alive, and that we are here. And no matter how hard we try to escape from things, we cannot escape from that. We continue existing, inside or outside our bodies, on this earth or another, or in dreams and on non-physical planes. Sensations will always be there, the eternal motion will still be there.
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