Decisions

When I was young I wanted to become a biologist, archeologist, photographer, actress, engineer and inventor, medicine woman and have my own alternative pharmacy, massage therapist. I've wanted to become an architect and designer, tattoo artist, martial artist, cook, have my own café and/or juice/smoothie bar etc. There's so many things I've wanted to become, and do, so many occupations I've been interested in.  

These past few years it's almost been like I'm waiting for the world to choose for me, just waiting and see what happens. But I have a feeling nothing will really happen because as it is now, a decision hasn't been made, and if a decision hasn't been made, the universe will have a problem trying to re-arrange itself for anything to happen. Why do I have to choose one may ask? - Trying to think outside of the box and all. Well, there's an enormous power in decisions, that's all I know. When you decide upon something - it could be anything - that's when things happen. And deciding upon an occupation could be like finding purpose with ones life. Because to me, an occupation should be a lot more about having fun and be happy than earning money - but that's the bonus. It's not that I'm not happy, I actually am, I'm enjoying all sides of life and know that I'm doing what I can to make myself happy, and hopefully making someone else happy simultaneously. It could be easy drifting around all life and just take every day as it comes. I still can't plan more than a month ahead which has become quite funny, because it's nothing I do deliberately. But I feel making another decision in life would be nice right now, I feel that could be my next chapter, modifying the purpose and meaning of my life. Adding things, letting go of other things.

The best part is I know I can still be interested in all those other things, and I probably will give not only one of them a go, but decisions have to be made sooner or later. I'm starting off by doing some research - since I believe that what you'll enjoy researching about the most could be a sign of what you'd be able to do long term as well.